Rachelle's beside me!

I hope I'm not blushing or sweating too much, because Rachelle is beside me. Who is Rachelle? Rachelle is a fellow nursing student, a year ahead, and beautiful. Val, my classmate knows her because they're both playing (well, Val used to play, but sadly, she's out now) for our(university) Women's Basketball Team and it's funny, I had a crush on her before. And it's also weird because, I know I'm not straight. So to think of a not-so-straight guy to get attracted to a girl, that's a different thing. Therefore, she's really magnetic. But that was just it. I am amazed to her pretty face and that's all, period.
Speaking of hearts, When was the last time I checked my 'heart'? Who was inside it? How's my heart doing now? Is it still beating or is at all lifeless now? After the tragic parting ways with my classmates, I had a hard time coping up with changes, and it made me act, think, and feel pathetic towards many situations, I lost my appetite with life(but not that serious, like, for example, I don't eat anymore[tho I am a bit "anorexic-looking" now] or that I drag myself to move from different places, hell no! it's just that I'm a bit morbid now and people can really sense it!) and that includes my lovelife. I somehow agree with the part of me saying that "I'm such a loser", telling me to "go get life', and "move on!". Now Fem, he is gone, literally and figuratively, everything is over between us. As I've said over and over, my heart misses my freinds, those people that touched and changed my life dramatically. And I specially miss certain people like Jot, Renzy, and most specially Fritzie and a lot more. And I've realized that my a semi-huge part of my heart is their territory!
Since that reshuffling thing, I've been cold somehow til now. The people that gets the best of you suddenly got shed off. Tho we still see each other from time to time, the new days can't surpass the old days with my friends!
Am I okay? I'm doing just fine.

Dealing with changes

I have to deal with new people, my new classmates to be exact. I have to deal with a new classroom, on the 4th floor(climbing 20+ steps for each floor level, a huge favor for me as an early leg exercise) of our new university building. I have to deal with having less time to spend with my old classmates whom I love because we have a new schedule different from each other, a 100% sure way to leave us in perfect isolation. I hate to deal with these new things, but what can I do? It seems like everyone is okay with this "reshuffle" thing. I'm a bit anti bout it! Moving on...