Sinful Solitude
I have a very personnal story to share... I'll edit this one once I escape from my horrible school work!
Synopsis:
One friday night, I found myself alone in our dorm, lonely and bored with a camera phone... immorality flourished...
to be continued...
this story is not the usual "Juno" post...
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February 4, 2006; 3:20PM
----------------The Continuation----------------
This is a very personal post. I am not asking for your opinion, I am just here to be a writer and write about my life. But if you really want to say something, say it nicely. Read on!
One Friday night (January 27, 2006: 8:00PM), I came home and the dorm was empty. This is the day of the week where I usually get the chance to be left alone for long hours undisturbed. Since I am the only one that has classes the next day, I have to stay home. But I am always alert for a look-out especially for the sound of motors of tricycles roaring a few blocks away; it might be one of my dorm mates! Gian, my older brother comes home every Friday, and the couple, Mae and Ben, just goes some place and comes back very late! And Mae’s occasional pest sister, Mahal, leaves every Friday too. In short, the dorm is mine! And what was my first instinct? Pap-pap-pap-party!!! I just played some hip hop beats in the PC and grooved with the bass booming for the first few minutes of being alone. Then in the middle of my “sweatin’ out” moment, I heard a voice calling at the doorstep. And to my surprise, it was Ben’s younger sister. I didn’t expect to see her, and the fact that she rarely visits our place. She came over just to drop by his “kuya’s” cell phone and found me all sweaty attending to her needs which was quite embarrassing. Wait, you might ask, “who is Ben, Mae and Mahal?” I’ll tell you later on one of my future posts, maybe on March or April. So moving on, where were we? Yes, the mobile phone! At first I ignored its presence thinking that “the computer is on and I’m doing nothing, hey there’s a tiny camera phone with Bluetooth capabilities and we have a little Bluetooth dongle as well, I may take some teeny-weeny pictures and post it on the cute www”, but that was just a thought and placed it on top of our T.V. Though I know it is wrong to play with other people’s property, my discipline failed me and immorality ruled! I have this “for adults only” Friendster account where I flirt with straight, not so straight and everything in between kind of guys. And I envy all their “way-beyond-the-clause-of-arts-it’s-more-of-a-porno-kinda-stuff” pictures. I already have a “sluttish” picture in my account but I don’t think it’s magnetic enough to fish all the “hot” guys and pimp me. Given the solitude, I have sinned! There’s the title: “Sinful Solitude”. Slowly, my clothes flew off, some snapshots here and some snapshots there with a little twist and some bend and a horny stare. Then I found myself naked in my room masturbating in front of the lens. After I came and a dozen of photos taken, I rushed to the sink to wash my dirty, filthy, obnoxious hands. When I was about to stop the entire exhibitionist acts, I heard a tricycle unloading passengers outside our gates, and it was Mae and Ben! And I am still naked with Ben’s phone in my hand and the PC still on with only the screensaver displayed! I quickly went inside my room! Busted! I am so busted! Then Mae started calling, “Juno… Juno… Juno…” Fuck! I am dead meat! It took me a few minutes before I did something to respond to Mae’s calls. I jumped and jumped and cursed myself to death inside our bedroom! But that will not help me, I have to open the door as soon as possible or else! So I wrapped my towel went out and opened the door! I was so tensed that time my heart beating crazy! The only thing I remembered Mae saying was “ay naliligo ka pala”, I responded with a nervous, short and low-toned laugh and hurried back in the comfort of my room. Still with a strong pressure pumping in my head, I heard Mae comment “yuck” while washing something in the sink which added to my worries, thinking that my pimp juice could be scattered on the sink. Gross! I felt weak all through out my body! And continued cursing myself! I saw Ben’s phone on my bed, what should I do with it? He is not supposed to see the other side of me. Being familiar in using SonyEricsson phones, I deleted all my pictures in a flash, and there was no double-checking for any trace! After I finished my job erasing all my shit, find the right time when both of them are away from the computer. I heard Ben went outside the garage and Mae taking a bath. Then, I went out my room, turned off the PC and placed the phone on top of the PC table beside the keyboard and went back inside again. I felt so wrong that night. I listened meticulously to the words that they said out of my paranoia. But I was so tired! I just put on my clothes, lie on my bed and let things pass naturally. I quickly fell asleep.
I simply didn’t want to go back to our dorm after that incident! Who would? But I have to! Questions haunted me like: “did I successfully erase all the pictures?”, “what’s going inside the minds of Mae and Ben?” “did Mae share the story?” For days I felt so awkward and it was obvious it was showing in my actions towards Mae, Ben and Mahal. I no longer have the guts to face them! I gave them a cold shoulder. Thank God Gian was there to ease my guilt! I confided and he took it very well. Some weeks after, it seems that my scam was safe. The only person who knows about this is Gian and you. Three weeks have passed and everything is back to normal, is it really?
Synopsis:
One friday night, I found myself alone in our dorm, lonely and bored with a camera phone... immorality flourished...
to be continued...
this story is not the usual "Juno" post...
???
February 4, 2006; 3:20PM
----------------The Continuation----------------
This is a very personal post. I am not asking for your opinion, I am just here to be a writer and write about my life. But if you really want to say something, say it nicely. Read on!
One Friday night (January 27, 2006: 8:00PM), I came home and the dorm was empty. This is the day of the week where I usually get the chance to be left alone for long hours undisturbed. Since I am the only one that has classes the next day, I have to stay home. But I am always alert for a look-out especially for the sound of motors of tricycles roaring a few blocks away; it might be one of my dorm mates! Gian, my older brother comes home every Friday, and the couple, Mae and Ben, just goes some place and comes back very late! And Mae’s occasional pest sister, Mahal, leaves every Friday too. In short, the dorm is mine! And what was my first instinct? Pap-pap-pap-party!!! I just played some hip hop beats in the PC and grooved with the bass booming for the first few minutes of being alone. Then in the middle of my “sweatin’ out” moment, I heard a voice calling at the doorstep. And to my surprise, it was Ben’s younger sister. I didn’t expect to see her, and the fact that she rarely visits our place. She came over just to drop by his “kuya’s” cell phone and found me all sweaty attending to her needs which was quite embarrassing. Wait, you might ask, “who is Ben, Mae and Mahal?” I’ll tell you later on one of my future posts, maybe on March or April. So moving on, where were we? Yes, the mobile phone! At first I ignored its presence thinking that “the computer is on and I’m doing nothing, hey there’s a tiny camera phone with Bluetooth capabilities and we have a little Bluetooth dongle as well, I may take some teeny-weeny pictures and post it on the cute www”, but that was just a thought and placed it on top of our T.V. Though I know it is wrong to play with other people’s property, my discipline failed me and immorality ruled! I have this “for adults only” Friendster account where I flirt with straight, not so straight and everything in between kind of guys. And I envy all their “way-beyond-the-clause-of-arts-it’s-more-of-a-porno-kinda-stuff” pictures. I already have a “sluttish” picture in my account but I don’t think it’s magnetic enough to fish all the “hot” guys and pimp me. Given the solitude, I have sinned! There’s the title: “Sinful Solitude”. Slowly, my clothes flew off, some snapshots here and some snapshots there with a little twist and some bend and a horny stare. Then I found myself naked in my room masturbating in front of the lens. After I came and a dozen of photos taken, I rushed to the sink to wash my dirty, filthy, obnoxious hands. When I was about to stop the entire exhibitionist acts, I heard a tricycle unloading passengers outside our gates, and it was Mae and Ben! And I am still naked with Ben’s phone in my hand and the PC still on with only the screensaver displayed! I quickly went inside my room! Busted! I am so busted! Then Mae started calling, “Juno… Juno… Juno…” Fuck! I am dead meat! It took me a few minutes before I did something to respond to Mae’s calls. I jumped and jumped and cursed myself to death inside our bedroom! But that will not help me, I have to open the door as soon as possible or else! So I wrapped my towel went out and opened the door! I was so tensed that time my heart beating crazy! The only thing I remembered Mae saying was “ay naliligo ka pala”, I responded with a nervous, short and low-toned laugh and hurried back in the comfort of my room. Still with a strong pressure pumping in my head, I heard Mae comment “yuck” while washing something in the sink which added to my worries, thinking that my pimp juice could be scattered on the sink. Gross! I felt weak all through out my body! And continued cursing myself! I saw Ben’s phone on my bed, what should I do with it? He is not supposed to see the other side of me. Being familiar in using SonyEricsson phones, I deleted all my pictures in a flash, and there was no double-checking for any trace! After I finished my job erasing all my shit, find the right time when both of them are away from the computer. I heard Ben went outside the garage and Mae taking a bath. Then, I went out my room, turned off the PC and placed the phone on top of the PC table beside the keyboard and went back inside again. I felt so wrong that night. I listened meticulously to the words that they said out of my paranoia. But I was so tired! I just put on my clothes, lie on my bed and let things pass naturally. I quickly fell asleep.
I simply didn’t want to go back to our dorm after that incident! Who would? But I have to! Questions haunted me like: “did I successfully erase all the pictures?”, “what’s going inside the minds of Mae and Ben?” “did Mae share the story?” For days I felt so awkward and it was obvious it was showing in my actions towards Mae, Ben and Mahal. I no longer have the guts to face them! I gave them a cold shoulder. Thank God Gian was there to ease my guilt! I confided and he took it very well. Some weeks after, it seems that my scam was safe. The only person who knows about this is Gian and you. Three weeks have passed and everything is back to normal, is it really?
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