In Those Jeans

This post should've been my post 6 days ago! Since I wasn't able to go online, I am doin it now.

Fat-O, Stick-O, Fat-O, Stick-O

Now I am a Fat-ass again... after my year-long work out program... my family and friends say that I am sooo slim to the point that they assume that I am SICK!: suffering from ANOREXIA or BULEMIA or BINGE-EATING DISORDER...(old story that haunts me til now? people called me: "Rustom"... Rustom Padilla... ouch!) they were alarmed due to my contineuos weight dropping!!!

So I ate and ate and ate animalistically...
Now, knowing myself and my body well, I know that I am returning, almost returning to the body size where I decided that I need to loose some weight!

A year ago...
my weight was 75kg, after a year of tremendous effort of workin out...
I became a Slim stick... from 75...down to 60kg... some were shocked out of happiness and most were shocked out of pity+disgust to what I have turned into...
Now from 60 I am back to 65 now and I am a bit alarmed because my "abs" is turning into "fl-abs"! :'(
And plus... they said that I need to regain back my "fats" to cope up with the demands in working in the hospital as a student nurse...
I don't know what to do! Fat-O, Stick-O?
I'm still working out tho...and I don't think I can live without sweatin out...
but I eat normal as well...because before I don't eat "normal" just to stay slim...

My idea of slim-ness is when I don't have fat deposits in my body jiggling while I walk around... :)

And to make sense of my non-sense, if you think you need to loose some pounds... YOU CAN! take it from me, I know! All it takes is a good work-out prog. + proper diet + the most important thing is ur inner "DRIVE" to body perfection! and oh DISCIPLINE too!

-I apologize, my pathetic ideas are just stupid?! ;p... don't get bugged... this is just how I think!? :)

The Marriage of Music and Life

Now that I am finally enjoying my summer vacation...
Reading my so,so long ago bought virgin book and listening ti Kiki's I-pod are my latest digs...
My new read: "One hundred years of Solitude" by Gabriel Garcia Bernal.
My most fave songs: "S.O.S." by Rihanna (just makes me jiggle my hips while washing the plates and kitchen utensils?),
Love on the Run by Chicane 'thanks to Jade for the introduction' (oh love...always running away from me)...
and maybe -Mine again by M.C.
I love Chris Brown's songs too! like Yo! and Say goodbye... :)
And thanks to Jadey... I am enjoying House again...

Celebrate good times, C'mon!

I am soooo happy!
Our Summer class is over and done, tho I am not quite sure if I passed or failed... I'm just glad that 6 weeks of hard labor has finally reached its finish line! :)
And one more month to go and I'll be experiencing hospital duties... anxious yet uberly thrilled! I want to wear that white uniform right after its distribution on ,I don't know when maybe on our enrollment all I know is that I can picture myself so clean and smart-looking on the uniform...
I've waited two-long years for that day to arrive and now my dream is figuratively and literally at my reach! wooohooo! :)
And another soon-to-come event is my 3rd year blog anniversary! Wow! My blogging is influenced by my college life...
which means...
I have come a long way! from being a timid,chubby,illusive freshman to a somehow friendly,leaner,open incoming junior, okay a junior.
And last but not the least...
I'll be turning 19 on June 22!
older but not wiser... I prefer dumber?! it is much fun to hear:)
And since it has been an annual event, I'll throw a simple birthday party this year at my teeny-weeny rat hole I call dorm! :) I hope all my friends will fit in! :)
booze, chit-chat, jokes, food! wow!


What to do, what to do?
I feel like a prisoner that just got out of jail! Now it is really official, it is Summer time... fun under the sun! :)
But after a month of relaxation... the work will be raised triple!
I am this close (---------) to being a full-pledged nurse...
Release one BIG GRIN =D

Where's my "Tall, Dark and uhm... fuck! Whatever!"?

I am still on the search for my prince or princess...
And damn I'm so wasted just waiting!
Tho I am so wanting for him or her...
I surrender as of now!!! right now, today, this very moment in time and space!!!with both hands up I totally surrender! :)
What i mean is that I am tired of constantly flirting with the wrong people, courting the dumbest and narrow-minded whores and fucking with a guy I don't like...
I'll just sit up in my room... (like Brandy's song)
Besides I really don't know the essence of having "IT"... a special someone... a boyfriend or a girlfriend...
I heard some of my friends' stories and all the magic and wonders having "IT" can bring... and I want it too but it's just not happening to me...
I somehow know that I am a bit hard to get along with, I don't have a job to spend some lovin' and some other alibis I can use to cover up my pathetic sudden dislike to the a part of the context we call "LOVE"...
I SURRENDER!!!
for now...
no more flirting, hooking-up, and stuff related to the latter....
ONE BIG STUPID SIGH FOR A BIG STUPID BITCH...
I want a goldfish in a fishbowl to see how sad it is to be swimming alone in a fucking empty container and to speed up my sleep! :)
I need to sleep this one! :P