Anything for you
♥September 11, 2006:
Since our duties are conflicting, mine was 6am to 2pm at the Operating room @ La Salle and his was 2pm to 10pm @ La Salle as well, we have to sacrifice and work on it!
But we never stopped sending sweet text messages while on duty... ;p
(Since I'm tired after a long day of working @ the OR, I usu. sleep right after I arrive @ my dorm & wake up at around 5-6pm...)
I know we miss each other like hell... I know!!!
>He texted me(@ around 9-10pm-after his duty)...
AR:"nand2 lang aq malapit sa dorm mo"
me:"ge, gv me 5mins., shower lng aq."
then I took a very brief shower, put on some cologne... and went outside...
AR:"wag na...uwi na aq, nsa jip na aq..."
I was disappointed...
but I never complained...
I prepared and I was about to meet him that night, but it was too late...
♥September 12, 2006:
Duty conflicting again...
But I went to his duty area for:
Reason # 1: I was hoping to find my missing patient @ AR's ward...
Reason # 2: To see him and make "papansin"
I saw him doing something near the patients' list... luckily I need not to go any further, because that's where I "really" need to go to...
So, while he was busy...
I stood beside him and pretended that I was just another nurse searching for a patient...
We didn't talk, I just smiled at him and said hi...
;p
(my regular "pag-papa-cute style")
♥September 13, 2006:
I don't remember anything that happened on this day!?!?!?
♥September 14, 2006:
No longer our duty, I've waited for him after class...
but he was not textin me...
So, I invited my friend to join me and check the internet...
Then, he texted me that he was just downstairs(my dorm)...
But before entering the net cafe, I asked him "ano, okay lang ba kung mag-net ako? pwede ko namang gawin to mamaya"
he said "wag na,nanjan na e,ituloy mo na..."
I hurried and finished my work for about half an hour only, coz I know he's waiting and I don't want to waste his time just waiting for me...
but when I was done and willing to cuddle him...
he decided to just go home...
I didn't expect that he'd do that...
I was really hurt...
Then, I made this "Break up" letter...
I did that ONLY to release my pain...
Do you know how I feel about sometimes you know your relationship is no longer working but you just can't leave the person because your love is greater than anything and you are willing to do anything just to make things work???...
That night, I was really hurt...
I tried texting him...
but he was...
I don't know?!?!?
♥September 15, 2006:
Finally, after a week of coldness...
We ended up at my dorm again...
We cuddled and cuddled and talked and talked...
Then, when everything was goin fine...
He opened up to me that he was bugged that I didn't meet him up last Monday(Sept. 11)...
and why do I have to take a shower...
all he wanted was to see me...
I didn't say anything...
I wanted to be with him so badly that night too...
But it just didn't happen...
But my point is I came...
And I finally said to him...
I came...
And then, I opened up my hurt feelings to him,
I said that I made this break up letter for him....
And then....
everything changed!!!
He suddenly turned into this cold, silent and unknown person...
I can sense that he was shocked...hurt...and threatened...
I tried explaining myself...
that I don't have any intention of giving the letter to him or breaking up with him...
but he was decided that...
that...
I am calling it quits...
but I don't want to call it quits, God knows I love him so much!!!
But then he decided that he has to go home...
So I begged...
I grabbed his bag and put it behind me...
And begged some more for us to fix this mess...
that I don't want to end the relationship that way...
since I am not giving his bag...
he opened the door and left...
all I had was his bag for him to return...
Damn, my world crumbled!!!!!
I went over my friends' dorm and cried...
I texted him to get his bag @ my dorm and to talk to me...
after a few hours...
he texted me...
that he was waiting outside my dorm...
I hurried...
then...
I explained...
it didn't work...
I felt so alone and destroyed that night...
the I gave his bag...
and he left...
That night, I went to my friends...
and entertained myself...
but the pain just can't seem to vanish...
I kept on texting him...
trying to win him back...
no message came out from him!
I can't sleep, I cried... I was devastated...
Then out of a sudden...
with my eyes so tired...
I fell asleep...
♥September 16, 2006:
My morning was never the same as to those of the past days...
thank God my theater rehearsals kept me occupied...
but after that, I went home alone...
On my way home, I tried even more convincing him that I never wanted to hurt him and swallowed all my pride...
but still...
he was not responding...
I went home so hurt...
then, my younger brother asked me: "o, kamusta na kayo ni AR?"
I said we're almost over...
♥September 17, 2006:
I went to ukay-ukay with my mom...
I was so hurt still, and I wanted to tell my mom about everything...
but I just can't...
Then, I went back to Dasma, Cavite that night...
hurt...
♥September 18, 2006:
I have this old CD... that has sad songs...
All I listened to is...
"Anything for you" by Gloria Estefan...
Damn the lyrics are perfect!!!
every word matches my heart's cry...
♥September 19, 2006:
Still...
"Anything for you"
Still...
no news about AR...
♥September 20, 2006:
"Anything for you"...
I texted up AR's close friend, Rika, also my friend...
To check how he has been...
She said
♥September 21, 2006:
P.S.:
I'll finish this post later...
Since our duties are conflicting, mine was 6am to 2pm at the Operating room @ La Salle and his was 2pm to 10pm @ La Salle as well, we have to sacrifice and work on it!
But we never stopped sending sweet text messages while on duty... ;p
(Since I'm tired after a long day of working @ the OR, I usu. sleep right after I arrive @ my dorm & wake up at around 5-6pm...)
I know we miss each other like hell... I know!!!
>He texted me(@ around 9-10pm-after his duty)...
AR:"nand2 lang aq malapit sa dorm mo"
me:"ge, gv me 5mins., shower lng aq."
then I took a very brief shower, put on some cologne... and went outside...
AR:"wag na...uwi na aq, nsa jip na aq..."
I was disappointed...
but I never complained...
I prepared and I was about to meet him that night, but it was too late...
♥September 12, 2006:
Duty conflicting again...
But I went to his duty area for:
Reason # 1: I was hoping to find my missing patient @ AR's ward...
Reason # 2: To see him and make "papansin"
I saw him doing something near the patients' list... luckily I need not to go any further, because that's where I "really" need to go to...
So, while he was busy...
I stood beside him and pretended that I was just another nurse searching for a patient...
We didn't talk, I just smiled at him and said hi...
;p
(my regular "pag-papa-cute style")
♥September 13, 2006:
I don't remember anything that happened on this day!?!?!?
♥September 14, 2006:
No longer our duty, I've waited for him after class...
but he was not textin me...
So, I invited my friend to join me and check the internet...
Then, he texted me that he was just downstairs(my dorm)...
But before entering the net cafe, I asked him "ano, okay lang ba kung mag-net ako? pwede ko namang gawin to mamaya"
he said "wag na,nanjan na e,ituloy mo na..."
I hurried and finished my work for about half an hour only, coz I know he's waiting and I don't want to waste his time just waiting for me...
but when I was done and willing to cuddle him...
he decided to just go home...
I didn't expect that he'd do that...
I was really hurt...
Then, I made this "Break up" letter...
I did that ONLY to release my pain...
Do you know how I feel about sometimes you know your relationship is no longer working but you just can't leave the person because your love is greater than anything and you are willing to do anything just to make things work???...
That night, I was really hurt...
I tried texting him...
but he was...
I don't know?!?!?
♥September 15, 2006:
Finally, after a week of coldness...
We ended up at my dorm again...
We cuddled and cuddled and talked and talked...
Then, when everything was goin fine...
He opened up to me that he was bugged that I didn't meet him up last Monday(Sept. 11)...
and why do I have to take a shower...
all he wanted was to see me...
I didn't say anything...
I wanted to be with him so badly that night too...
But it just didn't happen...
But my point is I came...
And I finally said to him...
I came...
And then, I opened up my hurt feelings to him,
I said that I made this break up letter for him....
And then....
everything changed!!!
He suddenly turned into this cold, silent and unknown person...
I can sense that he was shocked...hurt...and threatened...
I tried explaining myself...
that I don't have any intention of giving the letter to him or breaking up with him...
but he was decided that...
that...
I am calling it quits...
but I don't want to call it quits, God knows I love him so much!!!
But then he decided that he has to go home...
So I begged...
I grabbed his bag and put it behind me...
And begged some more for us to fix this mess...
that I don't want to end the relationship that way...
since I am not giving his bag...
he opened the door and left...
all I had was his bag for him to return...
Damn, my world crumbled!!!!!
I went over my friends' dorm and cried...
I texted him to get his bag @ my dorm and to talk to me...
after a few hours...
he texted me...
that he was waiting outside my dorm...
I hurried...
then...
I explained...
it didn't work...
I felt so alone and destroyed that night...
the I gave his bag...
and he left...
That night, I went to my friends...
and entertained myself...
but the pain just can't seem to vanish...
I kept on texting him...
trying to win him back...
no message came out from him!
I can't sleep, I cried... I was devastated...
Then out of a sudden...
with my eyes so tired...
I fell asleep...
♥September 16, 2006:
My morning was never the same as to those of the past days...
thank God my theater rehearsals kept me occupied...
but after that, I went home alone...
On my way home, I tried even more convincing him that I never wanted to hurt him and swallowed all my pride...
but still...
he was not responding...
I went home so hurt...
then, my younger brother asked me: "o, kamusta na kayo ni AR?"
I said we're almost over...
♥September 17, 2006:
I went to ukay-ukay with my mom...
I was so hurt still, and I wanted to tell my mom about everything...
but I just can't...
Then, I went back to Dasma, Cavite that night...
hurt...
♥September 18, 2006:
I have this old CD... that has sad songs...
All I listened to is...
"Anything for you" by Gloria Estefan...
Damn the lyrics are perfect!!!
every word matches my heart's cry...
♥September 19, 2006:
Still...
"Anything for you"
Still...
no news about AR...
♥September 20, 2006:
"Anything for you"...
I texted up AR's close friend, Rika, also my friend...
To check how he has been...
She said
♥September 21, 2006:
P.S.:
I'll finish this post later...
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