"A Moon and A Billion Star... I only need One Sunshine"

I have big opportunities to enter in a relationship...

but I chose to stay single.

I am constantly asking myself... "Do I still need 'time' and 'space' like an astronaut?" This what I tell my friends (in a comical manner) whenever they ask me about my current love-life stats; "I need time & space". But for how long?

Now, I have this wonderful guy in my life... He shows great interest in me. But I just can't say "yes"... Fuck my standards!!! Fuck me!!! Oh, just fuck me! And now I am a "SIGURISTA"? Or maybe just maybe that I may be so sure that there are better guys than him that would perfectly fit my rotten standards.

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My Basic Standards:

1st: "Attraction is VITAL"- if you're HOT, you're just a few centimeter away... but if you're NOT... let's see if we can work on it...

2nd: "The 'L' word"- well as they say "Love" is mysterious like the Sphinx in Egypt, but my second standard is... is the guy showing genuine interest, care, desire to own me? If not... then we might just be hooking up because of the "F" word...

3rd: "I'll make love to you, like you want me to, and I'll hold you tight baby all through the night"- Boyz2Men... sigh... oh, yes! The so-called elite make-out song. If all else fails... at least if he's good in bed it might change the mood. but if he's not... damn! what now???

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Going back to the story...

He's:

Attractive=30% +

Love=90% +

Sex=30% +

=150% /3 =50% which means... UNSURE!!!

So there, the fucking criteria hinders me in some fucking way to commit... and fuck it! fuck me! I can't solve the formula!!! is it supposed to be all about happiness, self-happiness?

If I have a "Sun" right now, should I search for better "stars" out there???