Hearts All Around

February, Valentines Day, cupid, roses & chocolates, phone calls, hot sex, and emotional rollercoaster ride.

Everywhere I turn, I see hearts all around me.

A waiting heart.

A longing heart.

A heart oh-so-in-love.

A heart in distress.

A broken heart.

A question mark-full heart.

An angry heart.

A heart praising God.

A heart of a friend.

A father's/mother's heart.

A cold, rock-hard heart.

A dead heart.

A begging heart.

A gay heart.

A jealous heart.

A healthy heart.

Your heart.

And my heart.

My friend once said: "Love comes, Love goes, Love waits, Love dies...". Maybe she's right. But I believe that love is a cycle. You fall in-love, then you fall out of it. You fight for the love you have and you lose it all. You feel hurt. You die. You wait. You live again. You find new reasons to smile and you eventually get your groove back like "Stella". Life goes on, people move on. You can choose the role of a "stuck-up bitch", it's your loss. Because life gets better and better, for love is a cycle. All you have to do is let yourself get carried away by the current.

I dedicate this to Juan Paolo, I whom he calls his everything.

What happened to Heath Ledger?

Heath Ledger is dead!
What a tragedy to the American Film & TV industry. Why do we have to loose such a hot and talented actor like Heath? Gosh, I really liked him a lot! He was my Ennis Del Mar! I couldn't get enough of the heat and the drama of the Ennis-Jack love story. It is the movie that gave a breathe of fresh air for the gay community. When I first read the news on my e-mail yesterday, I didn't bother to read it although for me it was an interesting entry. I thought it was just yet another catchy heading or a spam or some sort of gimmick, but oh no, when I turned on the T.V., the sad news was all over the place and I couldn't believe it! If I am shocked, probably many people will feel the same. He's a huge loss. And definitely, Michelle and their daughter is in deep pain today. May you rest in peace Heath.

Now my dreams of seeing Brokeback Mountain part two is gone...